It’s a weird feeling growing up evil then switching to holiness.

Basically a hybrid cross situation where I now have all this goodness inside me and ability to help people plus create new things while understanding scriptures completely.

Meanwhile on the other hand I love sex, drugs, alcohol having a good time while being more vulgar with my methods at times.

It’s like picking out some drunk in a bar and being all like he’s like a high priest you know?

No one would believe you at first until we talked and then they would notice my deep insight into everything.

I personally think that due to being a super old soul my spirit is drained to the point where half of me just doesn’t care anymore at all.

Meanwhile the other half constantly tries to reason with it but it cannot because the darker half is where all the intelligence lies.

So whether by myself or through others half of me knows better and refuses to feed into delusion, my universal reality just works differently.

I cannot be bribed with heaven or threatened with hell because I know I always come back here on earth over and over again until the sun explodes.

Then I just reset to do it all over again like a never ending death cycle watching all between worlds and realities.

Which is why half of me loves to help where as the other half is like ahhh fuck just blow up the place, start again early this time. ⁂

Ephesians 6:4

Do not provoke your children to anger, but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.

2 Timothy 1:5

I am reminded of your sincere faith, a faith that dwelt first in your grandmother Lois and your mother Eunice and now, I am sure, dwells in you as well.

“Here then, as I lay down the pen and proceed to seal up my confession, I bring the life of that unhappy Henry Jekyll to an end.” 

― Robert Louis Stevenson, L’estrany cas del Dr. Jekyll i Mr. Hyde


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