People around me claim I have no willpower due to my constant use of drugs and alcohol.

But I constantly remind them while they still choose to ignore the fact that my situation has nothing to do with lack of willpower.

My situation has everything to do with I hate the environment around me.

I don’t want to be here hence me trying to get out in thousands of ways over the past three years so until that time I need my daily escapes in other ways, otherwise I’d snap.

Hence the constant intoxication while awake.

I wake up instantly pissed off that I woke up again here so I jump straight for the weed and beer plus other chemicals at times by nightfall while listening to music and staying glued to this computer.

Like an emo kid but without the goth stuff, same idea as being Lucifer without the goat stuff. ⁂

Deuteronomy 4:4

But ye that did cleave unto the LORD your God are alive every one of you this day.
“I will never submit again. I will never stop fighting.” 

― Victoria Aveyard, Red Queen
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“I wasn’t born for an age like this;

Was Smith? Was Jones? Were you?” 

― George Orwell, Why I Write
https://www.history.com/news/world-war-iis-bizarre-battle-of-los-angeles
“In an era where women undress their outfits & give their bodies so carelessly, become the rare wild woman that undresses her mind and soul & knows the worth of what she has to offer.” 

― Nikki Rowe
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