I can only think and feel clearly while high/drunk including being left alone.
Hence why I usually wear headphones to drown people out while at home.
In terms of addiction?
The only time I am sober is the midpoint during sleep every night and even then sometimes I wake up to get high just to go back to sleep.
It has less to do with actually needing it but that it simply feels better while making whatever and whoever that much more enjoyable. ⁂
30 And Jacob called the name of the place Peniel:
For I have seen God face to face, and my life is preserved.
https://mirror-of-my-soul.com/
Which is really only the method of taking a negative addiction and switching it to a positive one, if it’s strong enough to break one away from whatever/whoever that is….
https://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=15912
I have to keep the inner psychopath at bay somehow.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Point_of_no_return
“Snow White and the 7 Dwarves”
“7 Psychopaths”
https://drugabuse.com/the-7-most-addictive-prescription-medications/
Therefore it’s one of those pollute the body to free the mind?
Or lose the mind just to have a healthier body and/or longer life?
I simply value my mind more than my body type of rationality.
https://www.goodreads.com/work/quotes/873132-interview-with-the-vampire
