It was the environments/surroundings/wallpapers as always, online and offline. ⁂
Stopped drinking only to drink more then did more coke after spending a tired day eating and recovering during the day yesterday.
Did some lines went to bed and woke up today to a nice sunny warm day while feeling perfectly fine and way better than I normally do.
The mind like the body forgets goodness/good feelings so it requires reminders at times, at least for me.
Meaning by crashing myself my body becomes aware of a horrible feeling while then maximizing the good feeling right after.
It really makes no logical sense which is why I have been a medical/scientific/artistic wonder since birth.
I think it’s just the Holy blood flowing through my veins which gives me more natural immunities and resistances against actual harm from whatever I ingest/do/think/feel. ⁂