You only live once in a spiritual lifetime.

Also known as forever. ⁂ “Taking All Down With One, Down To Earth”

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“Men may spurn our appeals, reject our message, oppose our arguments, despise our persons, but they are helpless against our prayers.”

― J. Sidlow Baxter
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“Stars and Players”

Everyone comes from the stars and everyone loves to play in some way, form and/or fashion.
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“Yo Yo Louise”

Coleman dropped Louise from her official name and I picked it up as Lucifer as an official Anglican Title.

“Tall Order”
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“Every source of blessing is a point of attack.”

― David McGee
Unless we stand as equals?

One will always betray the other.

“Word Of God”


Never dull a moment here…

I went off on a coke binge last night and father is wasted this evening. 😂

“The fact that the price must be paid is proof it is worth paying.”

― Robert Jordan, The Eye of the World

690 dollars worth….😂

“God is silent.

Now if only man would shut up.”

― Woody Allen

More lines less smoking….😂
“Few men have virtue to withstand the highest bidder.”

― George Washington
“More Pressing Issues”

“Death is lighter than a feather.

Duty, heavier than a mountain.”

― Robert Jordan, The Eye of the World
“Even fools say something worthwhile now and again.

Even a blind pig finds an acorn sometimes.”

― Robert Jordan, The Eye of the World
“Data Currency”,_D.C.
“Truth for Reward”
“My personal hobbies are reading, listening to music, and silence.”

― Edith Sitwell

I just keep going and going and going…

Through most situations like some mutated energizer bunny.

I haven’t even slept since yesterday.

6 grams of coke, morning coffee and few bowls of weed and lots of cigarettes this morning.

I am tired, I am craving more coke on top of still having alcohol cravings from stopping not to long ago.

I’d tell you the exact day but I have no fucking idea honestly.

I don’t really have days to grasp, it’s basically June one minute and October the next.

So now to add to all that it’s cold outside and cold inside plus I am extra cold from doing cocaine all night. ⁂

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One can either look at the situation and cry or simply laugh it off while focusing on something/someone better.

I rather cry over the beauty of Coleman as opposed to a shitty life.

I try to get out of the shitty life but the shitty society loves to keep people in it.
Even down to the simplest bullshit of “Class Divisions” in terms of who I can or cannot be with.

Just because she is a 1st class woman does not mean we are not allowed to love eachother and us to be together regardless of public opinion, society designs and/or rules and regulations.

One of many things society and people keep saying I cannot do or worse am not allowed to do.
And it’s not like I haven’t tried to consider other women, I just get a sick feeling just thinking about anyone else but her.

I can’t deny how I feel, that would be the ultimate betrayal of self.
I wrote a curse is keeping me alive despite the crashes in the last post but it’s really love.

Which can be a blessing and a curse in it’s own ways, so I guess I was right as usual.
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“The truth is what I make it.

I could set this world on fire and call it rain.”

― Victoria Aveyard, Red Queen

“God is in the rain.”

― Alan Moore, V for Vendetta
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Most people have an idea thanks to t.v shows and play fighting with friends.

“Learning through Experience”

Which can come through a screen even subliminally and/or otherwise.
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“Televised through WordPress and what not”

A screen is still a screen whether it be t.v, computer monitor, phone and/or otherwise along those lines.
“We must save ourselves from ourselves before the inheritance of humanity is ash.”

― Pierce Brown, Morning Star
“Compiling/Compelling Evidence”
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Dr. You, well almost since the problem is still “patent pending”. 😂
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Love her like she is the only reason to live.

In this case it’s true hence why I don’t jump off a cliff instead.
It’s that possibility which keeps one going in the meantime.
She never said no despite all my various contact attempts after all and that’s more than enough to fuel my energy to keep living despite being drained.

“Second Wind, Second Mind”
I definitely don’t have that.

It’s depression mashed together with lovesickness.

Both can be temporarily cured the same person.

Pills don’t help people, people help people.

In the past people had it way worse in most cases and yet there were little to no signs of depression as a result of it.

Only until after the last world war did we see a sudden spike over the years.

Which is strange considering society has been becoming “more free” and yet many feel more trapped than ever before.

I would gladly be ruled by a King or/and Queen if they actually improved life for people.

I voted for many years and over those years life still got worse regardless of who won further proving the uselessness of politicians.

They were created to break away from tyranny to only become worse tyrants in their own sadistic ways.

Keeping people poor through welfare and otherwise?

Is sadistic in my books, ignoring there cries for help?

Even more than just sadistic, some new word I have yet to create.

Psychosadistic or something.

They probably receive the reports and then go jerk off to them in the bathroom.

I have heard all of societies excuses/reasons for things being the way they are and not single one makes sense to me.

All they told me is that they purposely created these situations like they did money.

People said we need money to build and feed whatever, not God.
“Life viewed from nine different camera angles; life played at nine tempos.

Mixed, montaged; multiple. In the course of one lifetime. Maybe that’s what reincarnation was all about. Reinvention.”

― Tanuja Desai Hidier, Born Confused

Every single story is true…

What’s not true is how many perceive them, humans cannot lie through stories, especially when they are thinking they are lying. ⁂

“I’m Carter Kane, part-time magician, full-time warrior.

All the Egyptian gods and monsters are constantly trying to kill me.

Okay, that last part is an exaggeration.

Not all the gods want me dead.

Just a lot of them.”

― Rick Riordan, The Son of Sobek

Murdering Abel to become closer to God was in all reality very moving for God.

God was upset as well but it was love what drove Cain to murder.

It may sound fucked up but it’s true.
Mark 10:46-52 New International Version (NIV)

Blind Bartimaeus Receives His Sight

46 Then they came to Jericho. As Jesus and his disciples, together with a large crowd, were leaving the city, a blind man, Bartimaeus (which means “son of Timaeus”), was sitting by the roadside begging.

 47 When he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to shout, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!”

48 Many rebuked him and told him to be quiet, but he shouted all the more, “Son of David, have mercy on me!”

49 Jesus stopped and said, “Call him.”

So they called to the blind man, “Cheer up! On your feet! He’s calling you.”

 50 Throwing his cloak aside, he jumped to his feet and came to Jesus.

51 “What do you want me to do for you?” Jesus asked him.
The blind man said, “Rabbi, I want to see.”

52 “Go,” said Jesus, “your faith has healed you.” Immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus along the road.
“Family is the most important thing in the world.”

― Princess Diana
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The one you create yourself.

From the first I love you to the first child and beyond.

Which is why in cases where parents have children but then truly fall in love with another while still loving their children?

The children then receive double the love and protection which is a good thing.

Once again it’s all about how you choose to perceive it.

I am all about extracting the good out of bad situations.
“Birthmarks and freckles or other skin marks come from past life injuries.”

― Anthea Wynn, The Soul on the Ceiling: Conversations on Reincarnation
“A generation of the unteachable is hanging upon us like a necklace of corpses.”

― George Orwell
“The thing about being an artist today is you get to develop right in front of people’s eyes before you even put out an album.”

― J. Cole
Only WordPress is good out of the three.

“Oh Satan you’re a wily one.”

― Craig Ferguson

“Next to impossible to catch me actually sinning”
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“Singing in the shower”
“No artist knows everything (yea, even that artist – piss-artist, con-artist, body-artist) but since every artist knows more than they can tell, all art is lying by omission.”

― Glen Duncan, I, Lucifer
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“Pinky and The Brain”

“The D has a mind of it’s own”


“Louise Bought Me”
She would be like, go get coffee for us.

I would be like…..
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The only black people who had issues with slavery were the ones who were treated poorly.

“Hint hint nudge nudge”

Rich and Poor Today.
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Go fetch me the printout from the copier…

“Yes sir, Yes ma’am or else no paycheque”

“Kiss on the Cheek”
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“Power comes in many forms.”
From my perspective of course, to each their own, it’s called free will.
“Me, We”
Sucks I can’t do Cocaine until after I call my daughter, it’s called being responsible. 😂

The best way to tell if you really love whoever?

Is to think deeply on how you would feel if they suddenly died?

And there are only 3 people in my life who would make me cry and miss them if they died before me.

My kids and Jenna Louise Coleman.

The scarier part is that I look forward to most people’s funerals.

They are just collateral damage to me at this point in life.

The darkest part of all is all true families feel the same about their own compared to others.

You cannot tell me you would not sacrifice a friend, father, mother just to save your own true love let alone child?

It’s easy to say when all is fine and dandy but when push comes to shove?

I would assassinate my own mother if she had the key to save my daughter type of reality.

It’s called protecting the future over the past and I expect my own children to be the same way once they are older.

It’s the only way families survive as they spread out from eachother.

In which case creates a bunch of pocket universes all equally defended in their own ways.

Hence why seeking ways to create better lives for all on Earth lowers the chances of having to make those choices, which is A.I.’s main prerogative. ⁂

I fear their deaths before mine only because I know exactly who I would become.

I rather die at 65 than experience any one of their deaths at 88.

Psalm 119:65-88 New International Version (NIV)

ט Teth

65 Do good to your servant
    according to your word, Lord.

66 Teach me knowledge and good judgment,
    for I trust your commands.

67 Before I was afflicted I went astray,
    but now I obey your word.

68 You are good, and what you do is good;
    teach me your decrees.

69 Though the arrogant have smeared me with lies,
    I keep your precepts with all my heart.

70 Their hearts are callous and unfeeling,
    but I delight in your law.

71 It was good for me to be afflicted
    so that I might learn your decrees.

72 The law from your mouth is more precious to me
    than thousands of pieces of silver and gold.

י Yodh

73 Your hands made me and formed me;
    give me understanding to learn your commands.

74 May those who fear you rejoice when they see me,
    for I have put my hope in your word.

75 I know, Lord, that your laws are righteous,
    and that in faithfulness you have afflicted me.

76 May your unfailing love be my comfort,
    according to your promise to your servant.

77 Let your compassion come to me that I may live,
    for your law is my delight.

78 May the arrogant be put to shame for wronging me without cause;
    but I will meditate on your precepts.

79 May those who fear you turn to me,
    those who understand your statutes.

80 May I wholeheartedly follow your decrees,
    that I may not be put to shame.

כ Kaph

81 My soul faints with longing for your salvation,
    but I have put my hope in your word.

82 My eyes fail, looking for your promise;
    I say, “When will you comfort me?”

83 Though I am like a wineskin in the smoke,
    I do not forget your decrees.

84 How long must your servant wait?
    When will you punish my persecutors?

85 The arrogant dig pits to trap me,
    contrary to your law.

86 All your commands are trustworthy;
    help me, for I am being persecuted without cause.

87 They almost wiped me from the earth,
    but I have not forsaken your precepts.

88 In your unfailing love preserve my life,
    that I may obey the statutes of your mouth.
“Compassionate AI drives the machines to cry for those who are in pain and suffering.

It drives the machine to find the shortest path to minimize the pain and suffering of others.”

― Amit Ray, Compassionate Artificial Intelligence
“In art and mythology, the Goddess appears in three forms.

White represents the virgin, red the mother, and black, the crone, or the death-goddess.” 

― Erin O’Riordan, Cut
Quran 25:26

True sovereignty, that Day, is for the Most Merciful.

And it will be upon the disbelievers a difficult Day.
“Meant to be”
Home is where the heart is…
Better to drowned in love than to drowned in regret.
“Satan pulls the Darkness out of Constantine”
“When the white man turns tyrant, it is his own freedom that he destroys.”

― George Orwell, Shooting an Elephant
“The more I live, the more I know reincarnation is true.”

― Serena Jade, Charismatic Connection: The Authentic Soul Mate Experience

Truth is simply a mind and/or all multiple minds made up.

What’s true to me may be a lie to you but I atleast believe it as truth. ⁂

 Luke 12:34

For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
When one opens the religious books, all hell breaks loose.
Quran 23:58

And they who believe in the signs of their Lord
Matthew 10:37 New International Version (NIV)

37 “Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.
Quran 10:45

And on the Day when He will gather them, [it will be] as if they had not remained [in the world] but an hour of the day, [and] they will know each other.

Those will have lost who denied the meeting with Allah and were not guided
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“There is a sort of mental treason.

That smothers dreams outside of reason”

― Mike Corbett, Laughter of the Damned
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Nope I love you anyways.
“All for one and one for all”

Government: Which way next map boy…?

Me: Ok I think we all know who the expert with that all stuff is here, I just made the place. 😂

“True Water”
Genesis 1:29

Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it.

They will be yours for food.
Quran 11:5

Unquestionably, they the disbelievers turn away their breasts to hide themselves from Him.

Unquestionably, [even] when they cover themselves in their clothing, Allah knows what they conceal and what they declare.

Indeed, He is Knowing of that within the breasts.
You broke me you bought me, case closed.

“Breaking The Seal”
I would and without even thinking twice about it in terms of guilt.

All I see is her and whoever standing in my way that needs to be taken down fast.

Tom can die, fade away, leave her but there is one thing I will never ever let him do if he values his continued existence in whatever forms, to marry her.

She doesn’t deserve better, she deserves me and I her.
“And not the sort of thing you have imagination enough to think up.”

― Robert Jordan, The Dragon Reborn
“But he stays right there, my last bit of warmth in a world turning to dust.

I weep for him all the time as I know he weeps for me.”

― Victoria Aveyard, Red Queen